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Thoughts Lately
May 23rd I have a dissociative disorder. Borderline personality disorder. Depression. Anxiety. My treatment for mental illness has...
4 days ago4 min read
Questioning My BPD
I was recently diagnosed with Other Specified Dissociative Disorder. I had been in Dialectical Behavioral Therapy as treatment for...
May 43 min read
What the Heck is a System??
Hi! If you are new here, let me introduce myself. My name is Audi, and I am the intermediary and spokesperson for our System. We like to...
May 34 min read
Another Easter
April 20th Last night was the first of sleeping with the windows open. Spring is here, indeed. It's something else to wake up to fresh...
Apr 202 min read
Letter from my 80 year old self
May 31st, 2080 What a weekend! It’s such a blessing to be able to spend time with so many dear friends and family, and a whole holiday...
Apr 15 min read
Radical Acceptance
Here I am, on the edge of 25, with fewer close friends. Here I am, on the edge of 25, with little money in my bank account. I was not...
Feb 112 min read
The Lotus Flower
Supposedly, I have a fresh start. Not quite as clean as a slate as when I turned 18; I've got a few more chips and bumps. But, I know...
Feb 62 min read
Working With My Parts
I would not wish DID on anyone. My alternate parts of self are both me and only fragments of me. They hold memories, experiences, and...
Feb 53 min read
The Winter Blues - A Parched Well
Hi. I need to write. I haven't been - in any capacity. But, I need to express my feelings. I have really been struggling this November,...
Feb 52 min read
Why Do I Write (Publicly)?
I write for self-acceptance. For self-validation. To be heard by myself. And I write for others. For them to know they aren't alone in...
Jan 91 min read
Dear DID,
I see you. I hear you. I feel you. I accept you. You are real. Just because I didn't know about you, doesn't mean you haven't been here...
Jan 72 min read
Memoir Update
The last day of the year, I posted "It can only go uphill from here." And then, the first day of the year was a flop. My mood and energy...
Jan 43 min read
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